Can you believe I’ve never ever made New Year’s resolutions?
I don’t know why.
Probably because I usually spend the first days of the year in a food/hangover coma and in general in a partial lobotomy condition on my couch, surely not thinking about productivity goals.
No but seriously, I would really like to know how many of you use the first days of the year to think about sparkling wishful plans that will bring you to a better bikini body/job/mind peace/etc by Summer holidays time.
Ah! I can see you all in your pajamas on January 2nd, day-3 hair, snacking on calorie-bomb leftovers trying to remember amidst the fog of a 2 day-long hangover (3 days if you’re 30+ years old) who the hell was that guy you kissed at the New Year’s Eve party.
Those girls who spend the 1st of January making lists of goals and the 2nd of January exercising in the gym and juicing to start the year with a healthy green detox exist only on the pages of glossy magazines. Or at least, if they’re real, I’ve never met them.
If you’re one of these mythological creatures please explain me how you manage to do this, because to me you’re a big mystery.
(Actually I just realized I don’t usually make New Year’s resolutions simply because I’m lazy).
So this year I am apparently skipping my No New Year Resolution (NNYR) habit. And as a good Taurus, breaking my routines makes me feel nervous but I kinda feel good about it this time.
(and OK, technically it’s not New Year yet, but 2017 is just a couple of weeks away and we’re all already thinking what to wear for New Year’s Eve anyway).
(in full Al style I just wrote like 300 words without saying anything yet, or better without saying what this resolution is all about. Sometimes I amaze myself with my own logorrhoea, really).
So my resolution is: in 2017 I’m going to BLOG A LOT. And DRAW A LOT.
So what is the reason of this SHOCKING revelation, and what makes it so different from the other 2567 times I made such a statement? (I guess you can find at least 3 of these times in the limited amount of posts of this blog if you scroll behind)
Well to begin with, I really really miss writing and drawing.
I’ve tried meditation, I’ve tried being more social with strangers, I’ve tried to stop smoking and cut down carbs and telling myself I’m beautiful in front of the mirror every morning (I think my new therapist – who is amazing BTW – is making me become a bit of a hippie) but I still miss what would really make me happy and healthy.
I miss writing and drawing. A lot.
There is just nothing that makes me as happy as drawing does and there is nothing that gives me more feeling of completeness than rounding a drawing with a post full of random ramblings.
Secondly, I’m sooooo boooored.
I spend way too much time at work and the rest of my time doing primary biological functions such as sleeping and eating.
So what is Al’s idea to counteract infinite boredom? Do something completely different.
Something that would project me into an imaginary world of colors and beauty.
Something like drawing.
(Fashion drawing, that is)
Three, I am so freaking lonely that it’s even difficult to explain how lonely I am.
I’m not talking about general loneliness. I mean. I’m pretty happy with my boyfriend and my cats.
But you know, sometimes I would need to talk about those girly, frivolous little things that I used to share with my girlfriends back in Belgium in front of a bottle or three of Cava.
Since I just moved to a new city/country/continent I have just one friend here (Mari I love you <3) and my boyfriend and my cats couldn’t care less (and rightfully so) about stuff like my new favourite mascara or how my diet is doing wonders…
I just need to express that light, maybe a bit shallow side of me, like I would have done in front of those that bottles of Cava.
Even if nobody will read me, I just need to tell.
And to put a very expensive solemn seal on this whole resolution thing, I bought a new Macbook Pro so at least I don’t have the excuse of not having a dedicated computer to work with my art and blog and stuff (it might sound weird but I really used this a lot as an excuse lately to justify my artistic laziness to myself).
AND I also bought a scanner (can you believe I didn’t have a scanner??) which allows me to scan my drawings in the comfort of my home or even my bed (yay couch potato mode, my favourite). I finally don’t have to run through half city to find a decent print shop or use the scanner at my work (which honestly is quite shitty).
AND a private source told me in all secrecy that Santa is bringing me a graphic tablet for Christmas, and I really can’t wait to explore digital painting (I have the big expectation of being able to paint kind of anywhere anytime thanks to this, even while I’m couch potato-ing at the end of a long day or on a plane flying somewhere for work, which is kind of hard to do with traditional watercolors, paints, papers and the whole messy shebang).
Alright wrote too much, gotta go find a nice drawing idea for this post, I’m off.
And while I am going to get that bottle of Cava tell me, what are your resolutions?
(Don’t tell me go to the gym and eat healthy, because I don’t believe you :p).